My Life As I See It...

feeling blue...

2006-07-30T10:47:00.001+08:00

TO YOU
looking afar
looking so blue
my heart aches
it yearns for you

hold me now
hold me tight
keep me warm
all through the night

surrounded by people
yet feel so alone
the only means of contact
our (un)reliable handphones

please help me up
my heart feels so weak
please wipe away these tears
trickling down my cheeks

i miss you so much
my love for you is deep
just bring me smiles
for i hate to weep

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PATIENCE
Wilting flower
Rainy day
Make this feeling
Go away

I want you here
With me right now
So i can feel
Complete somehow

You've given me love
So deep so true
Now part of me's missing
That part is you

We've faced some storms
More's coming our way
Just know I love you
Each and every day

I miss you so much
But I can wait longer
Though day by day
This feeling grows stronger

Miss you n love u so so so much, sayang...

ONE

2006-05-02T00:12:00.000+08:00

Hutch had put this clip up on his blog...thought i'd just do the same...

thoughts of you..

2006-02-21T14:37:00.000+08:00

Quiet thoughts of you
run through my mind.
then i drift off to sleep
hoping in my dreams,
you, i'll find.
what do you think of
when you look at me?
when talking to me,
what do you see?
i see you in my future
holding me tight,
holding me close to you
when we sleep at night.

oh, how i wish it were so.

A trip back in time

2005-07-10T01:02:00.000+08:00

The Old Neighbourhood

My parents and I went back to the old neighbourhood
And was surprised by change
Everything was different
Shelters being built, layouts all rearranged.

The old playground that used to
Fill my childhood whiles
Now no more, not even
A brick, a swing, a slide; none.

The sound of children, the shrillness of cries, laughters
Now deafening silence, only the rustle of the leaves and the whispering wind
The hustle and bustle of Saturdays
Now just another lazy afternoon, dead.

Change.
Oh how i hate it sometimes.
4 years was all it took.

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The Old Coffeeshop

I remember
the old coffeeshop
my mom used to
buy our breakfasts from.

I remember
the old coffeeshop
that used to sell
my favourite traditional food.

I remember
the old coffeeshop
that is always filled up
with customers day and night.

I remember
the old coffeeshop
the rush of all the waiters
taking orders and bringing food to our tables.

I remember
the old coffeeshop
now empty and
filled with the lazy hours of the afternoon.

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Reminiscence

All my 15 years
I've lived in a noisy neighbourhood
Filled with children's voices
Of their parents exchanging the latest gossips.

I used to haunt the playground
Every 5pm till 6.30pm late in the evening
Coming home just in time before
The call for prayers over the radio at around 7 plus at night.

I remember the amount of space
I had for my bedroom
Of which I share with my little sis
A queen-sized bed with a single blanket.

I remember the fights we had
Over simple things as to which side
To sleep on or the length of
A single blanket each should possess.

Now after 4 years of moving out
I've realised the sentimental values
I have for my dear old noisy neighbourhood
Now as silent as the sound of the dead.

The playground now no more in existence
Just a flat piece of land
With no telling what the designers have in mind for
I have lost the memory to Change.

My bedroom now 1-and-a-half times
The size of the old bedroom I had
And now I call it my own
My sis has hers next to mine.

We now have a single bed
A blanket to call our own
Likewise for the rest of the things we have
We still have occasional arguments as I show my affections.

Now everything's changed
Fond memories dissipate
A shantytown of a neighbourhood
I used to call home.

The Great Illusion

2005-07-02T00:55:00.000+08:00

i came to show you how i feel;

give my support when i know
you don't need it
give my heart when i know
you're going to break it

did you even see me
when i was there?
did you even notice
or even care?

i dressed up for you
thinking you'd be impressed
i was there for you
and trying not to make a mess

i saw you when you were invisible

guess now
i'm the one who's invisible
'cos i'm right here
but you don't see me......

im in love...

2005-06-08T20:26:00.000+08:00

im in love with a man
who doesnt know
how much
he's worth to me.

im in love with a man
who doesn't know
how many countless nights
i dream about him.

im in love with a man
who doesn't know
how he weakens me
whenever he's around.

im in love with a man
who fills me with
wild desires and
romantic fantasies

im in love with a man
who is the
perfect gentleman
a girl could wish for

im in love....im in love...im in love...

lay still..

2005-05-13T23:37:00.000+08:00

lay still my sweet
await my kisses
these lips have thus longed
to drown in yours
let us embrace
passionately
let us entwine
like stubborn vines
warm hearts beating
cheeks flushed
hands clammy
cold shock courses through me
too long have i waited
this moment
finally
now hush
lay still be calm
let me hold you in my arms.

Next week

2005-05-08T23:25:00.000+08:00

just next week...
i have to hold on.
i'll see you next week.
missing you so much.

i'll be so proud of you,
next week.
do i share you with others,
next week?

as much as you're not mine
nor i yours;
i want you all for me,
next week.

missing you so much
these weeks
been looking at pictures of you
these weeks..

i'll be seeing you soon,
only just next week.

Confusion

2005-04-17T19:56:00.000+08:00

lately ive been thinking
should i move on, let you go
or should i hope for a better tomorrow
please help me find the answer

lately ive been thinking
about your precious face
it never seems to fade from my mind
please help me to forget

lately ive been thinking
about the things we've been through
or should i let it go, forget about you
please help me decide

lately im tired of thinking
im tired of hoping that you'd be mine
please just give me a sign
just say you feel the same anyway

Just Friends..

2005-03-07T00:43:00.000+08:00

Under the facade of a happy face,
There lies a girl
Longing
Hoping
Desperate
For her heart to be returned.
She has realised her mistake
Of giving it away too readily
Too naively.
She never expected it to go too far,
Neither did she know the boobytrap
She has put herself in.
Blown into a bloody mass,
She meticulously picks herself up.
Piece herself together.
Find courage to live on..
For it is still not too late
To just live her life just the way it is.
After all, she and he are only just....

FRIENDS.

Tomorrow..

2005-03-05T15:46:00.000+08:00

Thinking of tomorrow;
Words can't describe
This stricked feeling inside.
Confusion seeping through.
My insides churning.
Would you back off
Or would you stay?
Would you turn around,
Walk away?
Fear engulfs me.
Too deep to crawl out.
Too dark to find my way.
Send me a guiding light
Help me through the day..

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If i could wish upon a star
I'd wish to be there where you are
To hold you in my arms real tight
And say "I Love You" through the night

Set Me Free...

2005-03-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

break this chain of which you have a hold on
ME
my emotions gone wild
my sanity lost

lift me of this woe
the world of disappointments
of hopes being shattered
of dreams being just..dreams

this cursed emotion called love
devours me whole
and like cancer spreads
through my frail body

like a bird in a cage
i'm locked up
to never see the beauty
of the outside world

set me free, i beg of thee.

Memory...

2005-03-03T22:31:00.000+08:00

i look at a picture
and see a face
familiar to the eyes,
the mind,
the heart.

memories flood back
as if it were just
remnents of
yesterday..

today i am anxious.
it's been a long time.
tomorrow awaits.
hear me shout:

I MISS YOU DUNCAN!!

Lingering mind

2004-06-30T18:21:00.000+08:00

The air
The cool night breeze
Blows at my face
Kissed my hair
Whispers in my ear

The waters
So calm
Splashes gently on rocks
Echoes through my mind
Talks to me

The moon and stars
High above the clouds
Magical wonders
Keeps me wondering
About you.

My CoNf3sSion...

2004-06-12T15:49:00.000+08:00

by josh groban

I have been blind
Unwilling
To see the true love
You're giving
I have ignored every blessing
I'm on my knees
Confessing...

That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face
I am staggered by your beauty
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning
Falling into place
I can't hide it
Now hear my confession

I have been wrong about you
I thought I was strong without you
For so long
Nothing could move me
For so long
Nothing could change me

Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face
I am captured by your beauty
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is turning
Falling into place
I can't hide it
Now hear my confession

You are the air that I breathe
You're the ground beneath my feet
Where did I stop believing

Cos i feel myself surrender
Each time i see your face
I am staggered by your beauty
Your unassuming grace
And I feel my heart is
Falling into place
I can't hide it
Now hear my confession

I can't hide it
Now hear my...confession

cant sleep...

2004-06-09T11:42:00.000+08:00

cant sleep..
TICK TOCK TICK TOCK
tt round face on my wall..
TICK TOCK TICK TOCK
its hands goin..
TICK TOCK TICK TOCK
tossing n turning..
TICK TOCK TICK TOCK
shut up!!!!
TICK TOCK TICK TOCK

life is..

2004-06-02T23:41:00.000+08:00

life is...

life is
sweet
short
to be lived at its fullest.
never waste a minute of it.
spend it with ur
family
friends
anybody!

love is
a rush of blood to ur heart.
it can make or break u.

frankly..this means nothing.

got it back!!

2004-05-30T20:05:00.000+08:00

got it back!!

hey hey hey!! the other time when i set up this blog, the next moment, i could log on to my old blog..hahhaha. but i wont waste this...instead, i shld like to add spice to this 1 instead...the other one was too...i duno wat. but even tho it's like tt, i still like wat i've come up with. hehe! talk abt being indecisive. hahah! alrite alrite..

my vIrgiN eNtrY...

2004-05-25T20:09:00.000+08:00

my vIrgiN eNtrY...

hello...well, first and foremost, i'd like to say tt this is not my first blog, as i have no idea where my other blog went to. may be the site had errors, cos i cldnt even log on to it. blogdrive.com. *sigh*...

all my heart and soul...gone!!! wat is this man..?? it's sad...!! heartbreaking even!! but life must go on..my first hello to the guy i've bn having a crush on...the simplest things ive observed...poems...i feel as if a part of me's missing ryt now... you see, i wrote an entry in my diary tt smth like this wld happen..n it's more personal to write in diaries..but sumhow, writing a life journey and expressing myself to others sort of brings a whole new meaning to life...oh well..shall not dwell on this further.